‘This contradiction is between what I am inwardly and what I am outwardly. I am not two people inside. The consistent and unchanging principle within me is that I want to do good. I want to go God’s way. That is the only way that I recognize as good. ‘These acts of sin are against my real nature. It’s just not the real “me”. It is the fact that I still have the make-up of Adam that frustrates me so completely. I know what I want to be—there is no difficulty there. It is the performing of it that
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