also, to be frank, a bit of a nuisance. God is very close to us and yet not manifest in any obvious way. So when we go looking for God it is very likely that we will find not God but ourselves, or some aspect of ourselves. It may be our recent memories, it might be a digestive problem or headache or the realization that we cannot get comfortable. As we get beyond that we encounter our worries—what we have yet to do today, what we did not do so well yesterday. Beyond them, we encounter our desires