What we really needed was God. We needed the who much more than the why. When we are willing to push past the medication, to embrace the pain and the questions coming with it, we don't necessarily find all the answers—but we find God. He's at the core of our questions. And He Himself is the answer to our pain. In the case of Joshua, I tried as best I could to do just that—to press in rather than escape. That pressing-in became a constant refrain of our time in and out of the hospital. Sometimes it