But this was a moment when we couldn't just have faith; we had to choose faith. It had to be as conscious as any other decision; like choosing to exercise in the morning, faith needed to be discipline. And just like hauling yourself out of bed to go for a jog at 5:00 a.m., choosing faith was hard. Annoyingly hard. Frustratingly hard. But in its hardness, I also began to realize that I don't get the old adage that faith is a crutch for the weak to lean on. That's what enlightened people say. They