1 Maccabees 6:9–13

⁹He lay there for many days because deep disappointment continually gripped him, and he realized that he was dying.^{* 10}So he called all his Friends and said to them, “Sleep has departed from my eyes, and I am downhearted with worry.^{* 11}I said to myself, ‘To what distress I have come! And into what a great flood I now am plunged! For I was kind and beloved in my power.’ ¹²But now I remember the wrong I did in Jerusalem. I seized all its vessels of silver and gold, and I sent to destroy the inhabitants of Judah without good reason.^{* 13}I know that it is because of this that these misfortunes have come upon me; here I am, perishing of bitter disappointment in a strange land.”